GRRRRRR

Can I ever just not be asked STUPID questions???? Or can people stop making STUPID comments?

My favorite today is ...."Why are you so different and distant?"....ARE YOU SERIOUS??? I have no reason to be different or distant but PEOPLE think I am being that way. So annoying!

I am trying...
I am worn out trying to please everyone.
I confess...this is the stuff that pushes me away even more.

Will I...???

...Ever have THAT moment?
...Ever stop saying DUMB stuff?
...Ever just leave it be?
...Ever know what IT feels like?
...Ever just RELAX?
...Ever stop missing DAD?
...Ever stop feeling the way I do?
...Ever just go with the flow?

I confess....I just want THAT moment! Will I ever experience what everyone else does???

Was I NOT clear???

I confess...I have a tendency to say alot.
I say things that are important and things that are unimportant. Regardless of that I want what I say to be heard and I want it to be understood. I want it to not go in one ear and out the other. I want if it is something that is going to make me happy....well....LISTEN!!!!
Is this too much to ask?
Apparently...it is.