GRRRRRR

Can I ever just not be asked STUPID questions???? Or can people stop making STUPID comments?

My favorite today is ...."Why are you so different and distant?"....ARE YOU SERIOUS??? I have no reason to be different or distant but PEOPLE think I am being that way. So annoying!

I am trying...
I am worn out trying to please everyone.
I confess...this is the stuff that pushes me away even more.

Will I...???

...Ever have THAT moment?
...Ever stop saying DUMB stuff?
...Ever just leave it be?
...Ever know what IT feels like?
...Ever just RELAX?
...Ever stop missing DAD?
...Ever stop feeling the way I do?
...Ever just go with the flow?

I confess....I just want THAT moment! Will I ever experience what everyone else does???

Was I NOT clear???

I confess...I have a tendency to say alot.
I say things that are important and things that are unimportant. Regardless of that I want what I say to be heard and I want it to be understood. I want it to not go in one ear and out the other. I want if it is something that is going to make me happy....well....LISTEN!!!!
Is this too much to ask?
Apparently...it is.

I confess...

for the first time in my life I can't figure out how to use a CELL PHONE. What is my issue???

I am the PROUD owner of a Samsung Behold.

This phone is pretty cool BUT it has so many bells and whistles that I can't even figure out how to set the RING TONE.

This phone is in TIME OUT...it has given me a headache and is probably giving me an ulcer!

Can't it be easier????

Time to bust out the Manual.....oh the joys of a new phone.

The IF's of my life

IF...only I was taller then I would be the PERFECT weight
IF...only I had blonder hair then I would have more fun.
IF...only I was younger then I could really make up for lost time.
IF...only I wasn't adopted then I could not feel so disconnected
IF...only I wasn't the oldest then I would not be so bossy.
IF...only I was "smaller" then I would have what I want.
IF...only I had what I wanted would I truly be happy.
IF...only I had my dream job then I would not be stressed all the time.
IF...only I felt loved, appreciated, needed, cared for and wanted would I not be so insecure.
IF...only my Dad was here could I tell him what was really going on in my world.
IF...only I had made better decisions then I wouldn't have so many regrets.
IF...only I could be comfortable with myself.
IF...only I could let down the walls I have up.
IF...only I loved to exercise then maybe I would be a Size 2
IF...only I was N.A.C.H.
IF...only I could be everything that everyone wants me to be.
IF...only I could give up my gummy obsession then I would be closer to that Size 2.
IF...only I had a MAGIC WAND.

IF...IF...IF....I confess....the IF's could go on forever.

This is what I want...

If you have NEVER listened to "Somebody" by Depeche Mode...I recommend it.

I confess....I can't get this song out of my head but there is "somebody" I can't get out of my head...and it is freaking me out! I am not supposed to feel this way...yikes. ( I will keep you posted)


SOMEBODY
I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
He'll get my support
He will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
He'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact he'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
He will understand me


I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it
And in a place like this
I'll get away with it

Oh Happy Day!

Happy SAD! (Single Awareness Day)

Even though I don't have "someone"...I do have great family and friends that always think of me on this fabulous day. This year I even have a little something special....a "FAN"...LOL.

Hope you all have a great day! Love ya! XOXO

I confess....I have eaten way too much chocolate today....dang "V" chocolates.

DUH!!!!

If he is not calling...He's just not that into you. (Simple)

If he is not making time for you...He's just not that into you. (Good reminder)

If he is married....He's just not that into you! (Got it)

I confess....VERY simple concepts...yet I tend to get "stuck on stupid" when it comes to the "boys" of my life.

My Plug: If you haven't seen this movie or read the book and you struggle with "relationships/dating" or just want a good laugh/cry....HIGHLY recommend them both.

Why Am I Not Surprised.....

Everyday I am more and more shocked with things but then again...they should just be normal in my world.

I have officially decided to just be done for the moment with dating/boys. Let me tell you why.

I seem to find every guy that has unnecessary baggage. Let me explain. There is a difference between baggage that is "work-able" and that that is not...a CURRENT WIFE that you have been married to for 10 years and have 2 kids with is not "work-able".

Yes that is right...I was given the shock of a lifetime...yet again... that someone I was seeing was MARRIED. The clincher tonight was..."My wife gave me permission to come talk to you"...ARE YOU KIDDING ME????

I could go and on about what a "dirt bag" this guy is but I am actually a little afraid at this moment. A woman scorned is no one to mess with...meaning his wife. She may come "kill" me. I am the "gringa" that is taking her husband away...NOT anymore. She can have him.

I confess....I deserve better...but in the mean time I may become a NUN. :-)
I sure know how to pick them!

Lifesaver in a Can

For some reason I am the "Queen of Flat Tires".

Seems everytime I turn around I have another flat. It is the MOST annoying thing ever.

I had a friend recommend a product called "Fix A Flat". I had never heard of it.

This product is a Little Miracle in a Can. Let me be the First to Confess... I was a little skeptical as to what it was but figured I could spent $ 4.47 at Wally World (Wal-mart) and give it a chance.

So...this morning I came out and of course had a FLAT...it had been low the last couple of days but I filled it up and just hoped it was nothing. (I am keeping the Tire Industry in Business with all the new tires I buy...Really no lie.) But it no avail..it was FLAT. I ran some errands with the Sister and then the Mother and then was going to deal with the Tire. I remembered the little can I bought and figured I would give it a chance.

Upon reading the back of it ...I learned that it was going to Inflate my tire so I could make it to my destination of choice and get it fixed....as soon as I placed the tube from the can to my tire...It was like a Christmas Miracle...the tire filled up. I was saved.

I could go on and on about this Little Miracle but I thought I would just share it with all of you. It made my day... Thank you Fix A Flat.

Happy New Year!

Wow...Where does the time go? Seems like yesterday it was 2008 and now it is G-O-N-E!

The New Year always brings alot of time to reflect on the past year. I am happy to say that 2008 wasn't too bad YET it wasn't too good.

I learned alot of HARD lessons and CHANGED alot of things and am definitely a better person for it all.

I confess....kind of scared of what the New Year will bring... Day One has already brought me stress, frustration, disappointment and a stomach ache. Haha!