The IF's of my life

IF...only I was taller then I would be the PERFECT weight
IF...only I had blonder hair then I would have more fun.
IF...only I was younger then I could really make up for lost time.
IF...only I wasn't adopted then I could not feel so disconnected
IF...only I wasn't the oldest then I would not be so bossy.
IF...only I was "smaller" then I would have what I want.
IF...only I had what I wanted would I truly be happy.
IF...only I had my dream job then I would not be stressed all the time.
IF...only I felt loved, appreciated, needed, cared for and wanted would I not be so insecure.
IF...only my Dad was here could I tell him what was really going on in my world.
IF...only I had made better decisions then I wouldn't have so many regrets.
IF...only I could be comfortable with myself.
IF...only I could let down the walls I have up.
IF...only I loved to exercise then maybe I would be a Size 2
IF...only I was N.A.C.H.
IF...only I could be everything that everyone wants me to be.
IF...only I could give up my gummy obsession then I would be closer to that Size 2.
IF...only I had a MAGIC WAND.

IF...IF...IF....I confess....the IF's could go on forever.