1. The Atonement
2. Cell Phones
3. Computers
4. Lip Gloss
5. MAC Make-up
6. The Office
7. Tanning Beds
8. Egg Nog
9. Journals/Books
10. My IPOD!!!
I figured since I was complaining on what was bad in my life that I would come up with things that are good in my life. I am very blessed and have much to be thankful for.
"Count your blessings...Name them one by one"
Posted by KaMi at 10:52 AM 0 comments
There has been alot that has gone on the last couple of months. I don't usually talk much about anything except my issues with boys but today I am feeling a little bit different.
I have come to the conclusion...therefore I will confess that life is very interesting and with that comes change and sometimes heartache and hard times. All of which I am experiencing right now.
Oh... the joys of my "single" life. You know... I am pretty content in life expect for when things get turned upside down.
One of the BIG changes has been my job. I got a Promotion about a month and a half ago...so a fairly new thing. It is a BIG deal but yet no one gets how hard the transition has been. I have had to be very careful what I say and do. I have had to keep things confident and not say anything. All of which as not hard BUT it is hard when others feel that things should be how they have always been. Things change when you become the manager. You are responsible for more and take on alot more. Relationships have been rough. It will get better but sometimes things change. But it is ONLY work. Needless to say it has been hard. I have lost sleep over it.
That leaves the hard times. I have been in a big slump. I went from being "kind of a big deal" to...."people could really give a hoot about me". (Yes..this is my pity party for a second) I don't think anyone understands what it is like to be a SINGLE member in a church that focus so much on family. You are left out. No one wants to talk to you. No one even wants to say Hi to you. I am in a great ward BUT...they all talk about being friendly and saying hi to each other...so when I do this I am SUNNED. They will look right at me...I say HI and NOTHING. Am I repulsive or what??? It is just HI!!!! I have gotten to the point that I have followed in their ways and do the same. THAT IS BAD! I am not like that. I am social and very friendly. I have a ridiculous calling...which ADDS to my frustration as well. The SINGLE ADULT REP . needed to be taken Funny thing.... I have not been given any instruction on it at all and it has been 2 months. Can't a single girl serve??? GEE! I am trying not to be frustrated but no one knows where I have came from. I have been INACTIVE for so long and living a LIFESTYLE that was not healthy and that did not allow the spirit in my life. I made a HUGE change. I was doing fantastic but I need to be needed just like the married people do. I know if I had a husband and kids EVERYTHING would be different. Well... here is my declaration...I am SINGLE!!!! Get over it. I am sorry that I am not single and frumpy. Maybe that would be better for me as well. Now I am just rambling. I am annoyed, frustrated and tired. Not a good combo.
I am being honest here peeps. Take it for what it is worth. Life is interesting. My slump will end. I will figure it out. I always do.
Posted by KaMi at 10:31 AM 1 comments
Today is a different sort of post. It is a DISCLAIMER post.
I feel that "people" read my blog and think they can be mad at me for something that was said on here. YOU CAN'T. Read what the title is of my blog and that should tell you enough.
These are MY CONFESSIONS! My true feelings. Many of them written out of frustration BUT...many of them being written out of being hurt so many times by YOU!
Maybe you ...Dear Reader...don't understand what a CONFESSION is...let me explain.
According to www.dictionary.com there are numerous definitions to what a confession is. See below....take your pick!
1 acknowledgment; avowal; admission: a confession of incompetence.
2.acknowledgment or disclosure of sin or sinfulness, esp. to a priest to obtain absolution.
3. something that is confessed.
The true definition... is my definition...basically, it is how I feel. I am confessing to you how I feel. So if you are bugged by that Larry..Curly..or Mo....(I was about to use real names but thought I would spare YOUR further embarrassment) stop reading my blog.!!! If you want your feelings hurt just as mine have been hurt... then read on.
Remember... these are MY confessions ONLY based on how YOU have treated ME! You can't be mad at that.
What goes around..comes around! (Thank goodness for JT)
Happy Halloween!!!
Posted by KaMi at 10:10 AM 2 comments
DOES NOT MEAN WE ARE BFF!
I am so sick of people thinking that because we both share a common thing that we are automatically connected at the hip and have to be "best friends forever".
I had an experience yesterday that has put me over the edge. I was sitting at church and this woman leaned over and asked me some ridiculous question and I answered and then very rudely leaned back and did not want to talk anymore. Well...somehow she was still talking and going on and on about all these activities she does and how she is single and blah blah blah.
Anyways..she got wind that I was single and freaked. She started to talk to me again...she was mentioning how she did dinner at her house with singles....blah blah...blah.....I DON'T CARE!!!!
I politely told her who I was...." I am kind of a big deal'.....no seriously I tried to be nice and introduce myself and that was that. She really thought because I was "single" and she was as well that we had to sit by each other and be friends. Listen I am not friends with crazy.
She was crazy!!!!
I am soooo sick of it! Just because we share a "status" together does not mean I have to be nice to you...let alone sit by you. GEE!
I am bugged....annoyed!!! GRR!
Posted by KaMi at 3:25 PM 1 comments
Like everyone in the dating world we have our "back up plans".
Let's be honest we all have them...so don't pretend you don't.
Anyways..I got DUMPED by my "back up plan. "
My "Back Up Plan" was this guy that I have known for 3 years. We have kind of always dated on and off during that time. Nothing serious but that is what it was. He was fun...we had a good time together but he wasn't aggressive. He was always shy or timid or something and it kind of bugged. I never wanted anything more because of those things YET...I kept him as a "back up plan". ...Mean...I know but he was a good friend none the less.
So...Monday we HAD plans and Friday we were SUPPOSED to have plans ...but...I get a text from him on Monday morning stating that he couldn't move forward with me. ( Keep in mind..he would always tell me he loved me and call me his wife....weird!!!) I questioned him on what that meant and he said..." I prayed about you last night and about us and got my answer and it was NO!".
I was shocked.....well... not really.....he was just my "back up plan" but still!!! He prayed about us? We weren't anything!
I confess.... it did sting a little..alright ...alot....only because now I am back to square one. Now my "back up plan" is gone. He was supposed to be there for the long haul in case I needed him....lol...Oh well!!!
Time to find a new Plan.
Posted by KaMi at 7:16 PM 4 comments
Randomly... I hear reasons on why I am single. I confess... at times I ask for it ... and of course it is never what you want to hear.
A good friend of mine... that I have known for years ( 10 to be exact) ...told me that I had a "Character Flaw". When I asked what that meant he said he didn't know and had to go. Does he even know what a "Character Flaw" is??? It has been a while since he has said this but it has lingered in my mind for a while.
A guy I used to work with told me I had "b*tch face". WHATEVER. He explained that I had this face that looked mean. Cute face... but if you didn't know me he said I looked mean. He said if he saw me on the street, he would think ...cute girl but he would never approach me. Once he got to know me he took back what he said but still...do I look that mean???
My favorite one recently was that it was mentioned that I was "loud and intimidating". Are you serious??? When I think of loud... I think of annoying and obnoxious. When I think of intimidating... I think of someone that is sure of themselves yet unapproachable. Neither of the two are good. Trust me.
Here lies the problem...I am very social, outgoing, chatty,friendly and confident. I speak my mind and don't crawl under a rock when a tough situation comes my way. I didn't know any of those things were bad.
Its funny...a guy can be all those things and it is fantastic. A girl is any of those things and it is bad...very bad!
For all those that think you are great at coming up with reasons why I am single.....GIVE IT UP!!! Not one person has given me a solid answer that has any validity. Try ..I dare you!
So what if I am any of these things. My "charming and delighfulness" will never go away. You're reading this aren't you... Caught ya!!! Haha. :-)
Posted by KaMi at 10:35 AM 1 comments
I confess... that has got to be the most annoying question..EVER!!!
The response is always...NO....and...I don't know.
Me and dating are not BFF. I struggle with dating for some reason. (I know the reasons. I will confess about that..later on)
I have decided that with dating..'when it rains, it pours'. There are moments where there are a plethora of boys around and then nothing. It is so weird. They go through cycles. I hate it most when they go away and then randomly come out of the woodwork. It is always some annoying text..." Hey. How are you?" Why do they care after MONTHS/YEARS how I am. So annoying!!!!
People ask way too many questions. The married one always comes up as well. "Why are you not married?'...Answer..." I have to date first before I can get married." or "I don't know". DUMB!!!!
Maybe one day...I will get asked this question and it won't bug so bad. Hopefully at that point it will be answered proudly....with a "Yes..I am dating someone. " ( Yeah right...who am I kidding. My Prince Charming got lost in the forest...or plays for the other team)
"Bitter, Party of One...your table is ready"....its been that kind of day.
Posted by KaMi at 5:14 PM 2 comments
